I'm a big fan of Sally's Blog- Already Pretty. I'd highly recommend her latest entry, titled "Shame and Motivation"- it's a big reminder why I want to lose weight in the first place. I've been shaming myself TOO much lately, and it's not working, it's not right. Making myself feel worse about how I look right now won't make me want to lose more weight or look better, it usually spirals into some sort of self loathing fest that involves a lot of wine and cookies. She says:
Body shame is easy. Body love is hard. Body shame is fast. Body love is slow. It can be so tempting to just succumb to shame and let it steer our actions and blunt our emotions. But if you want to exert control over the arc of your life, and if you want to undertake positive physical change, I urge you to approach that change from a place of love. Think about the concept of stewardship: The careful and responsible management of something entrusted to one’s care.It's like I forgot that it was okay to like myself even when I'm not at or near my goal weight. Even though I have a lot of good in my life right now, I still find myself just ANGRY at the state of my body right now. I need to love myself and need to move forward with weight loss because I want to be healthy, NOT just because I want those other jeans to fit. Anger and self hatred only work as motivation for a very short amount of time. Love is where it's at. I should've been really listening to Nada Surf this whole time- "Always love- hate will get you every time."